Bullshit

i've realized that im a morning person now. Every night i get angry and grumpy cuz theres nothing to do and im too tired to go out. Every morning i wake up bright and early, excited for a good hour or two of biking. chomp down on a big bowl of warm oatmeal and 2 over easy eggs. Put on my leg warmers, shorts, jersey, jacket, gloves, cap, helmet, fill up my water bottles, then im off. come back, take a shower, eat a big meal, then off to work. then then come home, eat dinner, and surf the web and be grumpy because theres nothing to do and everyones a dickhead with absolutely nothing new to say. 

The worst part is when i finally find the time to hang out with people, its boring. Today i was very excited about hanging out with someone, but then she just fell asleep for an hour and a half and didnt wake up until she had to leave. very very very disapointing. almost rage inducing. 

Snowboarding isnt even that great. i'd rather be biking. Cars are boring because its illegal to drive as fast as i need to in order to get an adrenaline rush. Also at those speeds the slightest mistake will mean death, or at the minimum a wrecked car. even biking is boring at times. 

anyways, what im really trying to say is that i want a girlfriend. being single is boring. or no, maybe what i really want is to feel emotions. All i feel is either happy, bored, or angry. I want to be in love. I think i was for the past 2 years, up until about a few months ago. yeah. watever